"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Archive for October, 2015

Halloween party and fun visit with family!

This last weekend my sister and her family came to visit us. It was so nice to see them before we move. We had lunch at Red Robin on Saturday, yum!

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That night we were going to the annual Staley Halloween party. My mother in law came to help watch the kids. Here she is playing on her ukulele a little bit.

The party was a lot of fun as usual. It was fun to see everyone’s costumes. The treats we had were delicious too.

Isa and Chuck were an old couple. 🙂


Dr Who and Tardis.

Little red riding hood and the big bad wolf

Us! Rapunzel and Flynn Rider

X Men

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We did some other things too. Here are some more pics.

The kids had fun playing together with all the little ponies.

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We went to Sluy’s bakery and the Marina market.

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We had fun at the Evergreen park.

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We all enjoyed the treats from Sluy’s.

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Cute boys swinging.

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The cousins!

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We love you guys!! Thanks for coming to visit!

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Nicci painting pumpkins

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Chloe and Savannah had a little play date. These girls play so nicely together. They are so cute.

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The kids got some smores from the neighbor last week. They are going to miss their friends.

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Fun at target

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Fun at walmart haha

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I watched Mindy’s kids last Friday for a couple of hours. The kids had fun.

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Laura took me out to brunch yesterday. I had a delicious lemon, strawberry crepe. So yummy!

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The Barney’s invited us over for family home evening. We had a really nice time. We are going to miss them when we move. Here the kids are playing musical chairs. Fun, fun!!

Drumroll please…..

This is what I posted on facebook.

We have some big news to share. After living in Washington for 7 years, we are selling our house and moving to Utah. We will be leaving in 2 weeks. (Now we will be leaving in 4 days!) Eric got a job in Lehi and we are very excited for this new adventure. We will really miss our friends and family here in Washington. You guys mean so much to us and we will treasure all the fun times we have had with you all. We really love the Northwest and how beautiful it is here. We have made so many amazing memories here. It definitely feels bittersweet to leave but we are very excited to be closer to family and friends in Utah.

We are moving!!

These  last 2 months have been a whirlwind…..We decided in August that we wanted to move closer to family and friends in Utah. We have been working so hard to fix things in our house before we put it on the market. We have painted the outside, some of the inside, done trim and crown molding, shampooed all the carpets, finished the mantle around the fire place and much more. Eric has done most of the projects while I have watched the very energetic kids. Our house has been on the market for 2 weeks now and we stay busy with showings and trying to keep the house clean at the same time we are trying to pack things up. I have tried to de clutter as much as I can and I have donated sooooo many things to Goodwill. It feels nice to get rid of things that we don’t need.

We are leaving in three days now. So crazy! The kids only have two more days of school before we leave. They are going to miss their friends a lot but I’m sure they will do well in Utah.

I have been thinking a lot about our six years in our house. When we moved in Nicci had just turned 2, Lionel was 10 months and I was pregnant with Jordan. They were so little. We have loved living here but it’s fun with a new adventure! I’m excited for all the things we will be able to see and explore in Utah.

Pics of the kids one of the first times we went to the community beach. Fall 2009.





Today is….

…pregnancy and infant loss awareness day. I have been thinking of Oliver a lot….I want people to know that he was real, he lived, he squeaked like a little kitten, he opened his eyes, he tried to breathe. It hurt my heart to watch him try.

Sometimes I try to remember what it felt like to hold him in my arms. I wish I could hold him again. I wish I could feel his skin against mine. I wish I could hold his little hand. Our time with him was so short….I wish we had more time. He died in my arms and a part of me died with him too.

I have been thinking about that traumatic day when we were told his diagnosis and that nothing could be done. It was like an out of body experience. It was hard to breathe and to think clearly. I wanted to just drop to the floor. We got the news that no one ever wants to hear. It was unreal. My little baby….how I wish there had been something we could have done.

Then I think about how I went through two pregnancies after Oliver. I worried EVERY SINGLE day of those pregnancies. I had anxiety, often felt scared or depressed. I had a hard time allowing myself to bond with them before they were born. It was like I wanted to protect myself from getting hurt. I remember waking up many times in the middle of the night and try to get them to move. I was so scared they were going to die. But I made it through both pregnancies and I’m so grateful they were both okay.

We miss you little Oliver. I’m so glad I’m your mom.





Chelsey with Tyler at soccer practice.

Yucky spider!

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We went to Sydney’s baptism last Saturday. The kids had fun playing afterward.

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Eric made this Halloween themed cake with Nicci last Saturday. They had lots of fun!

Painting pumpkins


Chloe and Savannah playing doctor.


Tyler 10 months (late again)

Tyler turned 10 months on September 21st. We love our happy boy. He is learning and growing. Tyler was sooo picky with baby food that we started mashing and cutting up our food instead and he loves almost everything. His favorite food is spaghetti and meat sauce. He got a new tooth so he has 5 teeth now. He had a fever for four days but finally feels better. He loves to follow his siblings around and he loves to play with the dishwasher when I put plates and silverware in it. He used to be scared of the  vacuum but now whenever I turn it on he crawls as fast as he can to me. Little cutie.

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Pumpkin patch

We had a nice afternoon at the pumpkin patch a few days ago. 🙂

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Salt Creek

Last Saturday we went to the Salt Creek rec area in Port Angeles. It was a beautiful, sunny day and the view was breathtaking! We really live in such a beautiful place. We went on a short hike, looked at a cool bunker from world war II and the kids had fun skipping and climbing on the big rocks and bluffs. I love days like this, exploring and spending time together! On the way home we stopped by a fun park in Port Angeles and let the kids play and we also had dinner at a restaurant. Such a fun day!

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Funny pic

My little sleeping cutie!


Sick baby

Tyler has been sick all week with a fever…my poor baby.

Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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