"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Archive for March, 2013


We had an awesome Easter. We went to my brother and sister in laws house. We enjoyed a delicious dinner and  the kids got to have a fun Easter egg hunt with their cousins. The weather was nice and sunny and Savannah enjoyed her first Easter!


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2 Years since ultrasound

Today it’s been two years since Eric and I happily walked into the ultrasound room to have my 20 week ultrasound done, only to leave devastated after we found out our baby had a fatal birth defect, and would never come home with us. I remember the different words used that day, “fatal,” “lethal,” “death.” That day will always be etched in my memory as one of the worst days of my life. I always feel very emotional when I think about it.

Today it’s Easter and I’m grateful for the opportunity I have to one day be reunited with Oliver. One day my heart will be whole again thanks to my Savior. One day we will all be together again.

I would never have expected anyone to remember this date. But nevertheless, I’m so grateful to my dear friend Amie, who thought of me and Oliver today and gave me some beautiful lilies and a card. It means so much. <3

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Easter Fun

Yesterday we did some shopping with some cousins and a friend and Nicci and I bought some matching shoes.


At one of the stores, they had face painting and some other fun activities that the kids did.




My cute little bunny


Fun night

A new family moved into our ward so we decided to have them and some other friends over for dinner. I love how many new families have moved in recently, its so fun to get to know them all. We made homemade pizza and the kids watched “Flushed Away” while the adults talked. 🙂


Easter activities

I have done two Easter activities with the kids and both of them turned out kind of crazy.

One night we were going to dye eggs. The kids were so excited, Jordan got so excited that he accidentally knocked over one of the glasses that had pink dye in it. We had pink dye all over the floor. Poor guy felt really bad. We cleaned up really fast and were able to finish dying the eggs.

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I also wanted to make these with the kids. While I was making the rice krispie treats, I looked away for a second and Jordan touched the stove and burned his hand. Poor little guy. I felt so bad. Crazy, crazy. but the kids still had fun making these Easter bird nests with some of their friends. 🙂






Nicolina got a hair cut today. 🙂


Easter at preschool

They had an Easter party at preschool on Tuesday. Lionel was so excited. We got to hear the kids sing a little. 🙂

Weight Goal

One of my biggest goals for 2013 was to lose weight and be more healthy. I have been unhappy with my weight for a long time. I have also felt so out of shape. Right after I had Savannah I lost a lot of weight, but then it stopped and it made me feel very frustrated. I started by working out twice a week, and about a month later I wanted to exercise more and now I exercise about 5 days a week for at least half an hour. I always used to feel like exercising was so much work, but it’s actually been fun.  Another thing I have started to do is to drink more water. I also started to analyze the way I eat. I noticed that I often ate when I was tired or bored. I wasn’t really hungry, but it felt good to eat. When I started to drink more water I noticed that often when I thought I was hungry, I was really just thirsty. I started to eat healthier snacks between meals and stopped eating a big snack right before bed. I still occasionally snack after dinner but I try to eat healthy things instead of sweets. I try to stay away from chips, cookies, candy etc. I’m not saying that I never eat these things, I do, but when I do, I just eat a few. I used to drink tons of juice every day, but now I only drink a little bit of juice once a day. I didn’t realize how many calories there are in juice. I have started to eat smaller portions too. Just because something is yummy doesn’t mean that my body needs two, huge plates of it. I eat 5 smaller more balanced meals instead of 3 large ones. I used to always eat so fast, and I have noticed that when you eat slower, you feel full sooner.  One thing I have noticed since doing this, is that I feel like I have more energy and I don’t crave sugary foods as much. It’s been so nice to have that craving go away. If I feel like I want to eat something sweet, I just eat fruit or berries instead. I always eat breakfast and don’t skip meals. I have lost 12 lbs (5.4kg)  since I started doing this in January. It feel so good to be healthy and fit. I’m not going to be counting calories forever, just until I feel like I’m at a weight that makes me happy. 🙂

I love spring

This past weekend we worked in the yard again. We also went to a welcome home party for Eric’s cousin Jared who came home from his mission. I also went and had a “Semla,” a delicious Swedish pastry with some of my Swedish friends around here.

I absolutely love Spring. I love it that my kids play outside so much now, sometimes for hours. I love that we have a fenced in yard so that they can be out there and play as much as they want. I can get so much stuff done inside when they are outside so much. They fight less and are more happy when they are outside more. I love this time of year. I can’t wait for summer.


We got lots of dirt for the landscaping we are doing in our front yard. I will show you pictures when we are done.


The kids were pretending they were birds in a nest


Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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