"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Archive for May, 2012

Nicolina Singing

This year Nicci has been learning about the bones in the body at preschool.

Random Pics

Here are the boys watching the car getting an oil change last Friday.

Nicci found a sea star at the beach last week.

Almost 26 weeks

I am almost 26 weeks now. I love feeling Savannah move and grow bigger. I went and looked for a picture of me at 26 weeks with Oliver to see if there was a big difference since I had no amniotic  fluid with him. I think my belly looks a lot smaller with him than with Savannah.

26 weeks with Oliver, May 8th, 2011

Almost 26 weeks with Savannah, May 27th, 2012

A trip to the temple

Today we went on a ward temple trip to the Seattle temple. We had a great day there. The weather was gorgeous and the kids loved seeing the temple and walking the grounds. When we first got there we enjoyed a nice lunch. Later the Primary had some activities for the kids while the adults and teenagers went to the temple. Later we went to IKEA and bought some things while Nicolina and Lionel went to play in the play area. We also had some yummy dinner there. We were all so exhausted when we got home, but it was a great day!

Eric and me

Trying to get three, tired kids to look into a camera is HARD!

Kids playing at the church during lunch

Kids riding their bikes

The kids had fun riding their bikes today!

My Birthday

I had a great birthday. I got some nice gifts. The kids were so sweet to me all day, well except for when Jordan rolled out tons of toilet paper on the floor while I was on the phone with my mom, haha 😉 , but other than that they were super sweet. They sang “Happy birthday” to me multiple times during the day. Eric came home at 3 with some beautiful red roses. He took care of everything and just let me take it easy for the rest of the day. We had decided earlier that we are going out to a restaurant with some friends and without the kids for my “birthday dinner” on Friday and I am looking forward to that. Tonight we went out and had some pizza at Round table pizza and we also made a yummy strawberry trifle. I also went and bought some new clothes and jewelry. It was a great day and I feel so loved!


Poulsbo is a Norweigan town and they have a Scandinavian dancing group called Leikarringen. Since the kids are half Swedish I thought it would be fun for them to try it. Today I signed Nicolina up for this fall. Once a week for an hour she will learn traditional Scandinavian dances. I hope she will like it!  She will get to perform a couple of times every year with the group.

Dancing Brush

Last Wednesday night I went to the Dancing Brush Ceramic Painting Studio with some other baby loss moms and we had a great night painting and talking about our babies. This is what I made.

Red Bull

No…not the energy drink.  A few weeks ago I(Eric writing) went to a linux conference a good 3 hours away in Bellingham.  Well, Troy happend to mention that he gets about 35mpg in his car.  This got me thinking…so I did some quick calculations.  At current gas prices the trip would have cost $33 in gas.  Had I been driving in our less economical Sonata, it would have cost $58.  So I took this a step further and calculated that for all the miles I drive in it in a given month, I could save over $90 (with gas at $4/gallon)! As gas prices continue to go up, this gap will only get bigger.  So I discussed this with Bea and we did the most logical thing.  We sat down in opposite corners and cried.  Okay, not really.  But we did put our sonata up for sale.  Within 24 hours we had it sold.

We spent Saturday looking for a replacement.  I searched craigslist far and wide, reasoning that the best deal would be achieved there. I found many possibility and hit the phone or email making inquires.  My list of a dozen cars was quickly wittled down to 2 (for many reasons like rebuilt titles, smoker odor, one had 4 owners in 6 years, etc), that I could not reach.  We finally decided to just head out to search the dealerships.  We had a small list of 2001-2005 cars that achieved a combined EPA estimate of 28 mpg or above; Corolla, Civic, Mirage, Protege, Swift, Accent, or Echo.  There are a few more that weren’t on the list due to price or them being too new (such as the Fit and Yaris or Hybrid cars).  Other than being one of these cars our requirements were very few.  Had to be within our budget to pay cash, have power doors and A/C.  I didn’t care if it was 2 doors or 4, Automatic or manual (though I preferred manual because it is typically slightly better mpg).

Our first stop was the most horrible…We asked the sales guy if he had what we wanted.  He found a 2001 Civic DX (no A/C or power anything) which we declined seeing.  He checked some more and then took us on a 5 minute walk to a partner dealership where he showed us a yellow dodge neon (yes, not on my list).  We humored him and then politly told him we weren’t interested in anything not on our list.  We headed back and he checked the computer again.  Then he leaves.  When he comes back he tells us he wants to show us one.  As we walk out I notice it is the ’01 civic dx we said we did NOT want to see.  So I get a little mad and tell him not to waste our time.   So we left.

After that I was a bit more blunt.  I told them flat out I did not want to see anything not on our list or out of our price range.  We didn’t have any more pushy salesmen after that. We finally found the car we ended up buying in Tacoma at a Nissan dealership.  It was clean, looked nice, though Hyundai Accents certainly wouldn’t win a beauty contest IMO.  It was a comical start however as 2 things jumped right out: it was race car red with a spoiler and had the word “Sporty” in the window.  And at such a low price I couldn’t imagine why anyone looking for a sports car would pass this gem by.  It simply screamed words like power, speed, and fun.  Anyhow, we looked it over, checked for obvious problems and took it for a test drive.  We decided that we’d get it, IF we could get it down to what we thought it was worth.

So we headed back to the sales floor and haggled for a bit.  We finally agreed on a price a thousand below their asking price.  An hour an a half later (seriously? Paying cash and still 1 1/2 hours from reaching a deal to driving away?) we drove away with high hopes of saving tons on gas.  With any luck, we’ll be able to avoid to buy a car now for many years. Bea will drive the van and I will drive this new car to and from work.

And now the pictures…


Frozen Yogurt at Yo! G’s

Last night we went and had some frozen yogurt as a family. It was so good! They had so many different flavors and toppings to choose from.

Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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