"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Archive for January, 2010


Things are good. I’m so busy with the kids’ right now that it’s hard to find time to blog. But here is a little update. I survived the first days after my mom went home, yay! The kids are doing great and come up with new mischief every day. They keep me on my toes. Jordan is awake more now and he is such a cutie. I can definitely say that I feel like a zombie most days, especially in the morning. It gets better as the day goes on. We have a little Miss Nicci here that likes to wake up as early as she can, most of the time around 6. I’m not a morning person and if Jordan has had a bad night I don’t really want to start the day that early. Sometimes the kids are nice and take naps in the afternoon at the same time. Oh joy.

Jordan doesn’t like to sit in his car seat. He cries a ton when we are in the car until he falls asleep. Both Nicci and Lionel liked their car seats and always fell asleep really fast when we were driving somewhere. Hopefully Jordan will grow out of this.

One other thing that Jordan does that neither Lionel or Nicci did is spitting up. He spits up after almost every feeding and sometimes I feel like I smell like sour milk all the time. He is a cutie though.

The other day I was doing something in the kitchen early in the morning and I had not changed them out of their pj’s yet. Lionel then comes running butt naked in to the kitchen. I went back to Nicci’s room and saw his pj’s and a wet spot on the floor. When I asked Nicci what had happened she said, “I changed Li Li’s diaper and pj’s.” “Li Li peed on the floor.” Yay….thanks for the help Nicci. I mean it was cute that she wanted to help him, but not so fun for me to clean up. Crazy, cute little kids.

I have been called as a Faith in God leader for the 8-9 year olds in my ward. I’m starting next Wednesday and I’m trying to finish my schedule for the year. I think it will be fun and we will meet twice a month to do some fun activities together.

Eric and I went on a date while my mom was here and watched Avatar. It was a really good movie and I really liked it.

I made some new flower clips the other day and I think they turned out really cute.

I was brave and took the kids to story time at the library last week. The kids are always a little crazy when we are there and sometimes I wonder, why do I even take them there? One day Nicci started to say two of the finger plays they do and it really showed that she is paying attention, even if I didn’t think she did. So last week I took all three kids by myself for the first time. First I couldn’t find any parking and I was already a little late so that stressed me out a little bit. Then it took a while to get out of the car and put Nicci and Lionel in the double stroller and Jordan in the snugly. I must have looked so funny. When we came into the library a lot of people were looking at me and some moms were really surprised that all kids were mine. The kids behaved pretty well and had fun. Afterwards it was sunny outside and I decided to take them to the park for a little bit. Luckily Jordan was sleeping so I could help the kids swing and go down the slide. Lionel wants to climb everything now and then throw himself down even if he is really high up. I have to watch him all the time! So why am I writing about this? It was a good morning, and I was happy that I could go somewhere with all kids without losing my mind or wanting to jump off a cliff. (haha just kidding). That’s one thing that has been worrying me; that going places alone with all kids would be too crazy. I’m sure I will have times when I take the kids places that I will regret and wish I hadn’t gone. I have to admit that I haven’t attempted to go grocery shopping alone with all kids. I think that would be a suicide mission since Nicci always go crazy at the store and won’t sit in the cart and throws tantrums if I buckle her in. The cart would be so full of kids that there wouldn’t be any room for groceries anyways, so yeah….no thank you.

I bought some new clothes last week and I love them!  have my 6 week check up next week. I can’t wait to start to work out.

I can’t wait for spring to come! I have so many things I want to do around the house and outside in the yard. I love the spring in Washington.

I think I hear Nicci waking up now so I gotta stop typing now.

Tired Little Lionel!

Lionel decided to refuse to take his afternoon nap on Saturday. When dinner time came he was so tired that he fell asleep in his high chair. This has never happened to us before with our kids so I just had to take a picture.

Thank You Mom!

My mom has been staying with us for a little over 2 weeks. She went home this morning. We miss her a lot. It was so nice and fun to have her here. We had a lot of fun together. The kids just love her. Nicci kept asking me today, “Where is grandma?” “Grandma, go home?” She is definitely going through grandma withdrawals. It was so much fun to have someone home with me during the day and she helped so much. I love to spend time with her. I wish we could get together more often. We love you mom/grandma and we miss you! We hope you have a safe trip home to Sweden. On Monday I’m on my own with all three kids for the first time since Jordan was born. Hooah hopefully I will not lose my mind before the day is over. Just kidding! Anyways, we took a lot of pictures and I wanted to show most of them. Enjoy!

Jordan’s Blessing!

Jordan was blessed yesterday. We had a fun day. We had a lot of family here for the blessing which was really fun. I am so happy my mom was able to be here. After church we went home and had some yummy soup, bread and dessert. Jordan is such a cutie. Here are some pictures.

My Mom is Here!

My mom got here on Friday night. It’s so nice to have her here. The kids love her and have so much fun with her. It’s so nice to have extra help with the kids and everything. Jordan is such a sweet baby. We love our children so much.

Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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