"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen


The boys have loved soccer. It’s been very busy but fun with all the practices and games. Their last games will be on Saturday. These pics were taken last Saturday after we walked in the march for babies. The kids still had their faces painted so it was kind of cute to see them play with their animal faces, haha.

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March for babies!

When we moved here from WA I kind of felt sad that we might not be able to walk in the march for babies anymore. I didn’t even think to look and see if they had a walk here too. A few weeks ago I was driving on the freeway and saw a billboard that said that march for babies was in Provo in the beginning of May. I was so happy! A lot of the kids had grown out of their t shirts so we went and got some new ones before the walk. I was glad it was a sunny morning. This event was a lot smaller than the one in Silverdale, but it was still plenty of people there. They had some yummy breakfast food there when we first got there and that was nice because I had not had time to eat breakfast that morning. They also had two ladies there that did face painting. I was amazed how fast they were. The kids loved it. Eric and I both love to do this walk every year. I love to see families get together and honor babies that were born too early or who have passed away. I love to see grandmas, grandpas, siblings and friends come and support the parents as well. People just don’t understand how much their support means. After the walk they had bought pizza and Chick fil A for us. One fun thing that happened was that I ran into an old college friend that I used to work with in the school cafeteria, “the Galley.” She and her family was walking for her daughter who was born at 33 weeks. After we ate they had a dance party for the kids but we had to rush to Jordan’s soccer game. I think this was the fourth year we have walked in march for babies. We will go again next year!

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Author Fair

The kids told us a few weeks ago that they had been writing some books for us that they were going to share with us during an authors fair at their school. Last night we went and it was so cute and fun to have them read their books for us and show us all that they had worked hard for. I love to watch my kids learn and grow and I’m so happy that they love to go to school every day. It was nice to chat with their teachers a little and look around more in the classroom. We also stopped by the library and looked at the books they were selling at the book fair.

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We stopped by Scheels one night and let the kids ride the ferris wheel.

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After they got to watch a guy feed all the fish in a big aquarium.

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My little cutie

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My sister Marilyn got a puppy! His name is Scout. He is so cute and sweet!

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Fun at the pool!



Triggers….I never know when they might come. I had one just the other day. One of my friends told everyone that she just registered her son for Kindergarten…. Bam! There it was. If Oliver had not died I would have registered him for Kindergarten this spring. But he is not here, and it hurts.




Wedding reception

Eric’s cousin DahLynne got married earlier this week. We went to the reception one night and had a great time. It was fun to meet her new husband Tait and I loved getting together and chatting with a lot of the Merrill extended family that came. I always think its fun to see what colors people pick for their weddings. I really liked the pink and gray. I loved all their decorations and the treats were super yummy too! We are so happy for DahLynne and Tait!

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Eric chatting away with some of his cousins

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Cutting the cake

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Such cute decorations!

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Ice skating again

The kids have been begging to go ice skating again, so on Monday night we went. Savannah is getting better and better at it! She loves it!

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Last Saturday

We had a busy Saturday. In the morning we had softball practice and then the boys both had soccer games. In the afternoon we went to the Provo city spring festival. It was kind of cold outside and very windy! They had some fun activities for the kids to do and lots of different food trucks to try food from, yum! ¬†After the Spring festival Eric’s mom came and watched the kids so Eric and I could go on a date. We went to a impromptu comedy night. It was lots of fun! Lots of funny jokes! On the way home we stopped for some Iceberg shakes. I love the bubblegum one! Here are some pics.

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Date night!

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Nicci has made a fairy and bug garden.

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The day after, Sunday, me and my guy!

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Design finalization meeting

We had our design finalization meeting on Friday, April 8th. At this meeting we went through all the things we had picked for the house, to make sure we still wanted it and that we had not changed our mind. It was nice to be able to see everything again. We still think they will start digging next month. So exciting!

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Our Washington friends, Laura, Eric and kids were in UT visiting family before they upcoming move to Hawaii. It was so fun to be able to see them! Makes me miss all my WA friends so much! We had a nice time catching up!

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After our visit with the Kebkers we went to the Lehi family fun center. The kids had lots of fun!


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Yummy donuts from Krispie Cream.

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Savannah loves to skate!

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Fun game night with friends.

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One Monday night when I was driving Nicci to her riding lesson, I saw this cute little foal!

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Savannah’s room after her quiet time in the afternoon. Sigh.

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Poor Jordan was sick for a few days.

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Playing “Diamanten” with my sibs! I used to play this game when I was a kid!

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My brother LeRoy turned 18! Yay!

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The company Eric works for had a Lego activity one afternoon.

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This is what Eric made and brought home.

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Eric got his own scooter so that he can ride with the kids. I love riding on it too! Tyler wanted to try.

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Savannah has been watching “Little rascals” a little too much on Netflix, haha.



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Beatrice and Eric





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