"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Our Christmas card/birth announcement

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We celebrated Lucia on the 13th. The kids always love to dress up. I absolutely love this tradition. We also watched the Lucia celebration in Sweden, online in the morning.

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Tyler in the bath

This little guy loves to take baths!


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Christmas lights

We finally put up our outdoor Christmas lights. The weather was crazy with snow, wind and rain for the first weeks in Dec so we were a little behind this year.

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Santa Tyler

Eric and I had some fun taking pictures of Tyler one night after the kids were in bed. I love having a little newborn to snuggle during Christmas!

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My cuties


They are so excited for Christmas!

Pictures from Nativity activity

Here are a few pictures from the nativity activity we went to while Vincent and Yan were here. They normally had a baby doll in the manger representing Jesus but they told us we could put Tyler in there instead. So fun!

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Meeting Santa

The kids got to meet Santa twice yesterday! They were very excited and both Santa’s were really nice to them. They loved the candy canes they got. Lionel did not think that the Nordic Santa downtown Poulsbo looked like the real Santa though-haha. Tyler was asleep in his car seat while both pics were taken.

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Carriage ride

Yesterday we went downtown Poulsbo and went on a carriage ride. The kids love doing this every year around Christmas time!

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4th annual Christmas candlelight ceremony

Last night we went to the annual candlelight ceremony and remembered Oliver and other babies in heaven. I love going to this event and listen to the music, light a candle, think of my little boy and get to talk to other families who also have lost babies.

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, the psychiatrist responsible for the famous Five Stages of Grief, 

“The reality is that you will grieve forever.  You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one, you will learn to live with it.  You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered.  You will be whole again but you will never be the same again.  Nor should you be the same, nor should you want to.”

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Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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