"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Fun at play kitsap

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Another belly pic

Eric took this picture on Sunday when I was 38 weeks and 3 days.

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Thinking of Oliver

How do you say good bye not only to a dream, but a part of you? How do you say good bye to one so young and small, who lived such a short time?  (unknown)


Those we love don’t go away,
They walk beside us every day,
Unseen, unheard, but always near,
Still loved, still missed and very dear.


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Belly at 38 weeks

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Come out now baby!

Things lately

Nicci had a fun sleep over at our house with her friend Kaitlin on Friday night. Such cute girls!


Watching a movie before bed.


Silly Savvy


One night I went to Costco and when I came home Eric had made the kids moon sand. They loved it! We had sand every where when they were done, haha!






On Sunday night we got to watch live on youtube when Erics cousin Elise opened her mission call. She is going to the Lubbock, Texas mission and we are so excited for her!


Earlier that day we went to Silverdale and attended sweet little Ali Raes baby blessing. She is so precious! I love spending time with family!




Ugh, this week has been very hard. I never really get headaches but this week I have had bad, pounding headaches by my left temple, every day, all day long. Its been so hard to get anything done and I have mostly just tried to rest and relax.  I hope the headaches will get better soon. My blood pressure and everything has been fine so I have no idea why this is happening. Anyways, I am 37 weeks now and we are getting closer and closer to meet our baby!! Some days it doesn’t feel real that its coming up so soon. I cant wait to meet him!

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Happy 6th birthday Lionel!

Lionel’s birthday was today (November 3rd), but we had invited my in laws to come over for dinner and cake on Sunday the 2nd. I loved to see Lionel’s excitement the whole day. He couldn’t wait to open his presents from us, my in laws and mormor and morfar. He wanted an ice cream cake from Dairy queen and that’s what he got! He loved all his presents and has played almost non stop with them. He was a very happy kid when he went to bed. It was so nice to spend some time with my in laws and just sit and relax and chat. The next day for his birthday he had requested that we would eat pizza for dinner and then go to Chuck E Cheese, so that’s what we did! We are so proud of Lionel. He absolutely loves Kindergarten and to learn new things. He is such a great kid!

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November 3rd, Chuck E Cheese.

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We went to the ward trunk or treat on Halloween. It was rainy and wet but the kids had fun!! I should have worn rain boots because my shoes were soaked when we came home. The kids got lots of candy! After we were done we went home and ate some pizza and candy. After the kids went to bed Eric and I just relaxed and watched a movie while every once in a while opening the door for some late trick or treaters.

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Carving pumpkins

We had fun carving our pumpkins. The kids went a little crazy when they took the guts out of the pumpkin and I felt like we had guts everywhere in the kitchen haha. Savvy kept saying, “eww, ewww” when she touched the guts. Cute girl.

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Dressing up at music makers

Savannah got to dress up at music makers on Wednesday! She was so cute! Watching her dance and play to the music made me think of when Nicci, Lionel and Jordan were the same age and also had so much fun at music makers. I found some cute pictures and videos of them celebrating Halloween at music makers in 2009, and 2010.

Here are two videos of Savannah!

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