"If you know someone who has lost a child or anybody who's important to them, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died, they didn't forget they died. You're not reminding them. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and that's a great, great gift" - Elizabeth Edwards

"The deep hurt is the mirror image of the deep joy that still awaits you." - Bruce C. Hafen

Mix again

Last weekend we got lots of snow for Eric to shovel, haha

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Eric’s cousin Erika’s son turned 3 last Saturday and we went to his birthday party. The kids had fun and it was nice to catch up with the Merrills.

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Savannah had a fun Valentines party at preschool today!

Daily stuff

Flower headband :). Oh and I love my new hair straightener.

Nicci decorating for Valentine’s day. :)

I tried using fake eye lashes. It was a little hard to put them on the first time, but now it’s getting easier. I wear them maybe once a week.

Nicci is happy her hair is getting longer.

Me and Savannah at the library.

I love how Nicci loves horses and books, just like me!

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Tyler playing at the rec center while Savannah has her dance class.

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We signed the boys up for one month of floor hockey or innebandy  once a week. The coach is a guy from Finland that we knew from college. :)

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Nicci reading at the gym.

I have been trying to do some different easy hairstyles with my hair and with the girls hair too. I’m finally getting better at doing french braids.

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Fun at the movie theater before watching Kung Fu panda 3.



Blog about Tyler

Some days I think Oliver must have had a special talk or something with Tyler up in heaven before Tyler was born. I can imagine Oliver saying something like, “Soon you will meet your mom. She has been so sad and struggled a lot since I couldn’t stay and had to leave, so please give her some extra love and hugs. Please give her some extra cuddles from me.  She needs it.”

Of all our kids Tyler has been the most affectionate one. He loves to snuggle, to give hugs, kisses and just lay on our chest and cuddle. Our other kids were always so active and couldn’t wait to get down from our laps if we picked them up. Not Tyler. Even though he is a busy toddler now at almost 15 months, he still loves to take short breaks and just cuddle with us. He will be walking around playing all happy, and then all of a sudden he will walk up to me and just smile at me and give me a hug. It melts my heart. He still falls asleep daily on us before we put him in his crib for his naps. Since he is our last baby I think he also knows deep down that I need his sweet snuggles as much as I can. I just love him so. I have said it before but of all our kids Tyler reminds me the most of Oliver. I remember the first time I saw him sleep at the hospital and it just hit me like a ton of bricks how similar his facial features were to Oliver’s, especially his cheeks and mouth. Just the other day I woke up and looked over at Tyler who was still sleeping, and I saw so much of Oliver. I’m grateful for these tender mercies.

Provo City Temple Open house

We were able to get some tickets for the Provo city temple open house. :) The time we got was late at night on a school night so Eric stayed home with the kids, but we will take them there another time. I went with mom, Virginia, Makram, LeRoy and LeAnne. It was really beautiful there. I’m glad we could see it. This is our assigned temple which is cool.

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Midway Ice castles

Ever since I heard about the ice castles in Midway and saw the pictures online I have been looking forward to going there. We decided to go on a night when Elsa and Anna were going to be there since Savannah loves all things Frozen. I smile when I think about that the first three words Savannah ever put together when she started to learn how to talk was “Let it go.” Haha.  Eric came home a little early from work and we left a little after 4. We wanted to be able to be there while the sun was still up but also after it got dark to see all the lights. This was a great place for kids. They had so much fun running around every where, through lots of tunnels, and down some ice slides and climbing on stuff. We got there around dinner time so we enjoyed some warm cinnamon rolls and sugar cookies that they sold in a little hut. This is definitely a place we could visit again! Enjoy the pics!

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Lionel was the star student of the week in his class and got this cute card from his teacher after he was done. One day he shared some things about Sweden, another he read one of his favorite Lego Star wars books,  and he made a big poster full of pictures and information about himself and his family. It was so cute to watch him be so excited to go to school and share things about himself with his class.

My tired little Tyler

Got some cute, new things for the living room from hobby lobby :)

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We celebrated my sister Marilyn’s birthday! She loves Zelda so we got her this! Key chains, necklaces and other stuff.

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My sister LeAnne is so talented. Marilyn’s loves all things African, so LeAnne painted this for her!

The yummy, awesome Zelda themed cake!

Another pic of a tired Tyler at Costco, haha.

The kids love to cut paper and make “snow flakes.”

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Savannah wanted me to take a picture of her too.

Here Lionel is practicing the piano. Their piano teacher told me they are doing great :)

Nicci made a crown and wrote “Princess Nicci,” on it.

She was so proud to show me that she did this all by herself to her hair. Haha. Cutie.

Time to blog

I haven’t blogged for a while now. December was so busy and we did a lot of fun activities, so I had a lot to blog about.  Life has slowed down a lot since school started again. We have a new routine that I like and I feel happy and productive. Life is very busy. I feel like the days go by so fast. I work out Mon-Fri in the morning and then Savannah has a dance class twice a week and preschool twice a week. She really likes her dance class. I’m excited for the recital they are going to have in March. The three older kids started taking piano lessons last week. They all get half an hour lessons once a week. They are very excited about this. Their teacher seems really nice. They have one more session of their Little hoopster camp left this month and I think they want to play soccer when that starts again this spring. Nicci loves horses and wants to start to take riding lessons so I’m looking for a place where she can do that in the spring as well. I’m excited that Eric has the whole week of Spring break off. We have some fun things planned. The kids are getting to know more kids in the neighborhood and they love their school and teachers. They have very much enjoyed playing in all the snow we have gotten this year. Sledding is a lot of fun!

My brother Vincent came to visit for two weeks and it was a lot of fun to spend time with him. I miss all the family that are far from us.

Here are some random pics.

LeAnne and Nicci played with play doh one Sunday. :)

I saw this at Hobby Lobby, I love this store!! So cute!!

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Yummy breakfast!

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Love this guy soooooo much!!

Savannah and her princesses!

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Playing barbies with Nicci is fun!

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Savannah at her dance class haha.

The kids have been asking me to take pictures of them when they are sleeping. Haha here is my sleeping beauty Savvy.

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We had my family over on Friday night to say good bye to Vincent before he went home to Sweden. It was a fun night!

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Little Hoopsters

The kids are taking a basketball class for an hour every Wednesday this month. They really like it!




I love these guys!

Eric and Tyler taking a nap together. :)


Our Family

Beatrice and Eric





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